I Was Never the Girl in His Diary Chapter 07

I Was Never the Girl in His Diary Chapter 07

Inside a quiet diner, Barrett and I sat directly 

across from one another. When the conversation. 

shifted to the catalyst of our demise, his voice 

sounded incredibly hollow. 

“The truth is… long before I ever noticed Seraphina, 

I loved you.” 

I lifted my head in genuine surprise, he had never 

given me even a hint of that reality. 

Barrett continued, his eyes downcast: “I dropped 

so many hints, Valerie, but you never gave me any kind of validation. I genuinely believed you had 

zero interest in me, so I forced myself to move on.” 

“Later, I developed feelings for Seraphina. When 

she rejected me, it happened to coincide with your confession. In a fit of petty anger, I accepted. I 

admit it was a toxic, impulsive move, but deep 

down, I had an underlying motive…” 

He raised his eyes, staring at me without blinking, his words falling slowly: 

“I was way too arrogant. I operated under the delusion that no matter what I did, you would always be standing in the exact same spot waiting for me. By the time I finally woke up and 

realized my feelings, you had already vanished.” 

“Giving that piece of pie to Seraphina… I genuinely 

just saw that she hadn’t eaten. I never meant to 

completely disregard you.” 

A profound wave of self–loathing crashed over him 

as Barrett recalled that exact evening. 

The moment the dessert plate was shifted from 

Valerie’s fork to Seraphina’s hand, he had caught 

the fleeting flash of pure, crushing devastation in 

my eyes. 

For weeks after, that heartbroken expression had 

haunted him constantly, making him entirely 

unfocused no matter what he was doing. He had 

been so out of it that he hadn’t even noticed 

Seraphina walking right up to him. 

Seraphina had asked him if his original confession 

still stood. 

Barrett had frozen. The intense wave of euphoria 

he had spent years dreaming about never came. Instead, his mind was instantly flooded with images of me–and that exact, shattered look. 

And so, he had rejected Seraphina. He realized that I was a human being with real feelings, and he 

had no right to treat my devotion so carelessly. 

The moment he cleared his head, he wanted to rush right back to me, only to discover a breakup 

text sitting in his inbox the second he unlocked his phone. 

I quietly stirred the iced juice in my glass, offering a faint, distant smile after listening to his explanation. 

“Nobody is going to wait around for you forever, Barrett. Especially not after they’ve been thoroughly broken.” 

“I know…” his voice was barely a whisper, the harsh reality finally sinking in.. 

“I did something unforgivable, and I want to spend the rest of my life making it up to you, fixing the damage I caused.” 

My hand holding the spoon paused. I shook my head gently. “It doesn’t matter anymore. I’ve entirely moved past those things. Life has a lot more to offer than just romance, doesn’t it?” 

The atmosphere at the table instantly fell into a 

heavy slump. 

After a moment of silence, I slid out of the booth. 

“I assume we’re done here. I only approved a half–day off from work.” 

Barrett suddenly lunged across the table, grabbing 

my wrist, his lips moving frantically but no sound. 

coming out. 

“Valerie… does this mean you forgive me?” 

I let out a soft, genuine laugh. “I never said that. I am simply telling you that I no longer care.” 

I walked away. 

Barrett promptly resigned from his part–time shift at the café and booked a flight back home. Before checking in, his only request was for me to unblock him on iMessage and Instagram. 

My life settled back into a peaceful, routine rhythm. 

As the start of the semester neared, I crossed paths with the guy who had lent me his heavy jacket at the bus stop. 

Gathering my courage, I asked for his contact details so I could return the freshly laundered coat. 

He told me his name was Nathaniel–Nate for short–and that he was a fellow incoming freshman at Northbrook University. 

Slowly but surely, we began to grow close. 

One afternoon during midterms, my brother 

somehow managed to obtain my new number and 

called me. 

He was sobbing hysterically on the other end of 

the line: 

“Valerie, please come home, I am begging you! I swear to God I’ll never make fun of you again! I’ll never do anything to hurt you! Mom and Dad are driving me absolutely insane… I finally understand what you went through.” 

I listened to his desperate crying completely 

unmoved, before quietly hanging up. 

When my parents forced me to spend the night outside on the porch, it had been Zachary’s 

brilliant suggestion. 

For eighteen years, as long as I was around to absorb the blows, my parents directed every ounce of their toxic expectations onto me. He had enjoyed a stress–free life, frequently treating my suffering as a comedy show and mocking my 

existence. 

Now that he had driven me away, that suffocating pressure had naturally shifted onto his shoulders. 

The tables had turned, and Zachary was finally reaping exactly what he had sown. 

Zachary ultimately snapped under the relentless 

pressure, ending his life by leaping from his 

campus apartment building. 

The day he died, my parents practically blew up my phone with endless, frantic calls.