I Was Never the Woman in Focus Chapter 06
His phone slipped from his grasp and clatteredÂ
loudly against the wooden floor.Â
Zion sank onto the sofa. The silence in theÂ
apartment was suffocating.Â
He closed his eyes, replaying Letitia’s words over and over. Appendicitis. A solo trip to the emergency room. The images haunted him.Â
He’d always thought Kelly was tough, that she never needed looking after. Every time he brushed her off, she’d quietly handle everything on her own.Â
He’d mistaken that for thoughtfulness. Now heÂ
knew it was despair.Â
He jumped to his feet and tore through the apartment, searching frantically for any clue she might have left behind. Nothing. Drawers andÂ
bookshelves stood empty.Â
He rushed to the TV cabinet and pulled open theÂ
bottom drawer. Inside sat a large black trash bag.Â
He grabbed it like a lifeline and ripped it open withÂ
his bare hands.Â
Trinkets spilled across the floor: the woodenÂ
carving he’d brought back from overseas, its wing broken; their matching couple mugs, shatteredÂ
into ceramic shards; the handmade scarf she’dÂ
knitted for him, the one he’d mocked for itsÂ
old–fashioned style and never worn.Â
Beneath everything was a plastic bag. His hands.Â
shook as he opened it. Inside was the used filmÂ
camera he’d given her years ago, next to aÂ
dust–covered photo album.Â
Zion flipped the album open. The first page held aÂ
blurry figure. A faded sticky note in Kelly’sÂ
handwriting was stuck beneath it: Happy eighthÂ
anniversary. I’m giving back all the blurry momentsÂ
you left me with.Â
His eyes burned and stung as he stared at theÂ
words. He’d hidden his laziness behind the excuse.Â
of “artistic ambiance“. He knew the truth–he’dÂ
never bothered adjusting his camera settings forÂ
her.Â
For Selena’s aurora portraits, he’d lain on theÂ
frozen tundra for three hours in subzeroÂ
temperatures, waiting for the perfect split secondÂ
of light. For Kelly, he’d always just snapped photosÂ
carelessly. He’d assumed she never minded. ButÂ
she’d kept every slight locked away in her heart.Â
Tucked inside the last page of the album was aÂ
receipt–proof of the deposit refund for theirÂ
wedding apartment. The date matched the opening day of his photography exhibition.Â
A sharp pain slammed into his chest, stealing hisÂ
breath. He finally understood why Kelly hadÂ
walked out of the gallery without a word that day.Â
She’d seen the aurora series. She’d seen everyÂ
ounce of his favoritism and every lie he’d told.Â
“Kelly…”Â
He crumpled to his knees amid the mess on the floor, and tears finally streamed down his face.Â
Just then, the phone on the sofa rang. HeÂ
scrambled to grab it, hope flaring, only to see theÂ
contact name: Buddy Selena. For the first time, theÂ
name felt glaringly offensive.Â
He answered, his voice hoarse. “Hello?”Â
“Zion, are you home yet?” Selena’s voice wasÂ
sweet and coquettish.Â
“What is it?”Â
“My friends made a huge mess at my place afterÂ
the party. I can’t clean it all alone.” She whinedÂ
without a trace of embarrassment. “Could yourÂ
come over and help? Your girlfriend’s goneÂ
anyway, so you’ve got nothing better to do.”Â
Nothing better to do.Â
Zion’s knuckles whitened around the phone. Once,Â
he’d thought requests like this were a sign of trustÂ
between friends. Now her words turned hisÂ
stomach.Â
While Kelly burned with a high fever and sat aloneÂ
in the hospital, he’d been tending to this woman’s sick dog.Â
“Selena White.” He spoke her full name sharply.Â
There was a pause on the line. “Zion? Why are youÂ
calling me by my full name?”Â
“Are your hands and feet broken?” Zion’s voiceÂ
turned icy cold. “Can’t you hire a cleaner when.Â
your place is messy? Who do you think you are,Â
asking me to clean your house in the middle of theÂ
night?”Â
Selena was stunned. “What’s gotten into you?Â
We’re buddies!”Â
“Buddies?” Zion laughed bitterly. “What kind ofÂ
buddy asks another man to clean her home late atÂ
night? What kind of buddy pesters a taken man forÂ
favors nonstop, knowing he has a fiancée?”Â
“Stop hiding behind the word ‘buddy‘. EveryoneÂ
sees right through your little schemes.”Â
Silence hung on the other end of the line.Â
Moments later, Selena shrieked angrily. “ZionÂ
Xavier, have you lost your mind? You offered toÂ
help me in the first place! Don’t act so high andÂ
mighty now!”Â
“Is it just because that dramatic girlfriend of yours.Â
ran away? Taking your frustration out on me?”Â
“She’s nothing but a housewife who can only doÂ
chores! I wouldn’t even ask for your help if youÂ
weren’t so easy to manipulate…”Â
Zion cut the call dead and blocked her number.Â
He leaned back against the sofa, head tiltedÂ
upward, tears rolling down his cheeks.Â
He finally saw the truth. The woman he’d thoughtÂ
was pure and genuine, just a close friend, wasÂ
nothing more than a leech who fed on his favors.Â
and free labor.Â
And the woman who had loved him with her wholeÂ
world, who’d endured every grievance in silence-Â
he’d driven her away with his own hands.Â
“I’m a terrible man,” he muttered into the quietÂ
room, and slapped himself hard across the face.

