Five Years Of Marriage And I Was A Name He’d Never Mentioned Chapter 06
Back home, I started packing.Â
In the closet, the pajamas we bought for theÂ
wedding still hung there. On the balcony, theÂ
succulent he picked out for me was still sittingÂ
there. The matching slippers by the door–I’d wornÂ
them for five years.Â
irony.Â
I looked at each thing and felt nothing butÂ
When a person’s heart changes, even theÂ
traces of when they were sincere turn into a joke.Â
Brandon came home to find two suitcasesÂ
already packed.Â
red.Â
him.Â
He stood in the doorway, his eyes completelyÂ
“You’re really leaving?”Â
“Yeah.”Â
I zipped the last bag without even looking atÂ
He walked over and pressed his hand downÂ
on one of the suitcases, his voice tight.Â
“Lauren, I never went that far with Ivy.”Â
“I admit I lied to her. And I lied to you. But IÂ
never touched her.”Â
I stopped.Â
Then slowly looked up. “So?”Â
“You think that just because you didn’t sleepÂ
with her, it’s not betrayal?”Â
Brandon’s face went tight.Â
I looked at him and said each word clearly.Â
“You didn’t touch her, but you remembered howÂ
she likes her coffee. You remembered whichÂ
streets she likes to walk. You remembered everyÂ
casual thing she ever said.”Â
“You gave her the patience, the attention, theÂ
passion that should have been mine.”Â
“Brandon. Physical or emotional, there’s noÂ
difference to me.”Â
His fingers went white at the knuckles. After aÂ
long moment, his voice came out hoarse. “I didn’tÂ
want a divorce.”Â
“I just… made a mistake.”Â
“A mistake?” I laughed, but tears came with it. “Your ‘mistake‘ was seeing her behind my back.Â
Lying to her that you were single. Thinking about another woman while holding me every night and telling me you missed me.”Â
“Brandon, what exactly did you take me for?”Â
He had no answer.Â
I wiped my face and called my mom.Â
An hour later, my parents arrived.Â
The second my mom walked in and saw my red eyes, she didn’t ask a single question. She just pulled me into her arms.Â
“Come on. We’re going home.”Â
I nodded, and the tears fell even harder.Â
Brandon stood in the middle of the livingÂ
room, his voice dry. “Mom…”Â
“Don’t call me Mom.” My mother’s voice was ice. “I can’t accept that.”Â
My dad was always calm, but that day heÂ
didn’t bother with polite formalities either.Â
He looked at Brandon, and his gaze wasÂ
heavy.Â
“When you were first starting your businessÂ
and struggling, Lauren didn’t want to hurt yourÂ
pride. So she begged me to throw some work yourÂ
way.”Â
“When your mom was in the hospital, Lauren paid for it out of her own savings.”Â
“Your first suit. Your first decent watch. TheÂ
flower baskets at your company opening–sheÂ
saved up for every single one of them.”Â
“She never once mentioned any of this toÂ
you.”Â
“Because she said she loved you. It wasn’t aÂ
transaction. She didn’t need to be paid back.”Â
My parents had neverÂ
mentioned any of this in front of Brandon before.Â
time.Â
beat.Â
And clearly, he was hearing it for the firstÂ
He stood frozen, disbelief flooding his eyes.Â
“Lauren… why didn’t you ever tell me?”Â
I looked at him, my heart aching with eachÂ
“Tell you what?”Â
“Tell you that I quietly put my own future andÂ
savings on hold so you could look good?”Â
“Or tell you that I’d rather be the one whoÂ
sacrificed a little so you could feel like the worldÂ
was on your side?”Â
“Brandon, when I loved you, I didn’t see it asÂ
sacrifice.”Â
“But now I realize–it’s not that I never thought about myself. It’s that I put myself so far last.”Â
The red in his eyes deepened.Â
Not anger.Â
It was remorse, arriving too late and almostÂ
crushing him.Â
My dad picked up the suitcases, his voiceÂ
calm and firm.Â
“The debt is paid. We’re notÂ
going to use the past against you.”Â
“But from now on, you no longer have theÂ
right to make my daughter shed a single tear.”Â
That day, I left the home I’d lived in for five years with my parents.Â
Brandon stood at the door. He didn’t follow.Â
He just watched me with red eyes, like heÂ
finally understood that he hadn’t lost a wife whoÂ
would come home.Â
He had lost someone who once put him atÂ
the very front of her life.

