After Reading My Boyfriend’s Mind, I Dumped Him for Good Chapter 15
Side Story (Atticus’s POV)
I fell for a girl. Her name was Cecilia.
She was different from everyone else. Wherever she went, it was like flowers bloomed.
And somehow, unbelievably, she liked me too.
I was afraid to talk to her. But I was even more afraid she’d end up liking someone else.
So whenever she chattered away and didn’t get a response from me, I’d secretly slip snacks into her hands.
That way, she wouldn’t be disappointed in me.
Then Julian told me that letting someone chase you forever without giving them an answer made you a jerk.
I didn’t want Cecilia to like a jerk.
So that day, when it was pouring rain, I quietly put my umbrella back under my desk.
Lots of people offered me one. I said no. I only wanted Cecilia’s umbrella.
Sure enough, she bounced over to me.
The gray sky might as well have been sunshine. Just because she was there.
I tried learning how not to be a jerk.
When she talked, I tried my best to answer. When I couldn’t, I’d just buy her things.
Why couldn’t humans be ants?
If people were ants, she’d just have to brush against me and she’d know. Instead of having to say it out loud.
Saying it was torture. I just couldn’t.
Every time she said she liked me, I wanted to tell her I liked her too.
But the moment the words reached my lips, all I could see was that bloodied little cat.
Forgive me. For never being able to say I love you.
But every time I shivered with excitement, every time I kissed her deeper-that was me telling her. How much
I liked her.
I liked the way she bounced around. I liked her nonstop chatter. I liked all of it. All of her.
I liked her even more than I’d liked that little cat.
Which was exactly why I would never tell her I liked her.
I couldn’t lose her. But somehow, it seemed like I was losing her anyway.
When she came to bring me water at the court, I was happy-and not.
There were so many guys out there. Some of them weren’t even wearing shirts-Julian, for one.
So annoying.
Like, his body isn’t even better than mine. What’s he showing off for? Not like Cecilia would look at him.
Then she froze halfway through handing me the water.
Julian came over, yapping away. No shirt on. Reeked of sweat. Could Julian just… stay away?
Then Cecilia started avoiding me.
She even threw away the water instead of giving it to me.
She claimed she’d only been passing by.
I didn’t believe her. I wanted to go after her. But what excuse could I use?
Then I thought of it. The notes I’d taken for her.
I’d give them to her. She’d definitely praise me.
Maybe even hug me. I liked Cecilia’s hugs. I’d been looking forward to one.
But she didn’t want the notes. She liked someone else now.
That classmate of hers looked dumb. I’m miles ahead of him in the rankings. Why would she take his notes
over mine?
I was late. Way too late.
Cecilia was on cleanup duty, and I let her sweep for ten whole minutes. What the hell was wrong with me?
No wonder she disliked me even more.
She told me not to walk home with her anymore. How was that fair?
Her classmate didn’t help her clean. Didn’t carry her bag. Nothing. So where was I losing?
Then she forgot our movie date. And said yes to someone else.
Didn’t she want to kiss me anymore? Wasn’t that her favorite thing to do?
I was so annoyed. Why am I like this?
Seeing Julian only made it worse.
Idiot. Started talking to me about kissing-like he even knows what that is.
Who knows how many people that mouth has been on? And he plays all innocent in front of Cecilia
Disgusting. He’s totally trying to steal her.
But Cecilia only liked kissing me. Every time we went to the movies, she’d kiss me.
Damn it. Not this time.
I spent the entire movie staring at her. She didn’t kiss me once.
I wanted to kiss her. What was I supposed to do?
That girl looked familiar. Some ex of Julian’s, I think.
We used to play together when we were kids.
Later, my father stopped letting me leave the house, and we drifted apart.
But Cecilia didn’t even ask who she was.
She used to get jealous. And now… she really didn’t care about me anymore.
Childhood friend? I barely knew that girl.
Then Cecilia wanted to break up with me. I was done for.
So annoying. So annoying. So annoying. I hate this. I hate this. I hate this!
Why was Jake everywhere?
Even the person in my dreams had changed from Cecilia to Jake.
That shameless asshole. Always trying to steal someone else’s girlfriend.
Even in the cafeteria.
Cecilia used to hate eating in the cafeteria with me. But she’d eat there with him? She really moved on.
Why was I so bad with words? I wanted so badly to tell Cecilia I liked her. I really, really liked her.
Why couldn’t I just be an ant?
I finally said it. And she didn’t believe me.
God. Kill me now. My head hurt so much.
Then she looked worried. And suddenly, it didn’t hurt so bad.
She was finally looking at me. She didn’t even notice Jake trying to confess. Made me so damn happy.
Then I woke up. And Cecilia was in my arms.
At first I thought I was dreaming.
Then her soft lips brushed against mine.
The familiar touch. The feeling of my heart completely losing control.
The excitement that made my body tremble and my soul shake.
Every cell in me screaming that I loved her.
It was her. It was really her. Cecilia. My Cecilia. In my arms.
She came back. She said we could get back together.
I can’t believe it! I’m so freaking happy right now!
