The Fireworks Weren’t for Me, the Baby Wasn’t Mine Chapter 13
For the next few days, Harrison would alwaysÂ
show up at my front door.Â
Knowing it bothered Leo, I signed him up for aÂ
summer camp and sent him away.Â
Only after the bus drove off.Â
Did I lean against the door and look at theÂ
travel–worn man.Â
Harrison looked quite haggard; his eyes wereÂ
sunken with dark circles, and his lips wereÂ
colorless.Â
He had lost quite a bit of weight too; his skin wasÂ
so thin you could see the veins and bonesÂ
underneath.Â
“I don’t want you disturbing us,” I said.Â
With just that one sentence.Â
Harrison burst into tears without warning.Â
He covered his face and made no sound, but his shoulders were shaking uncontrollably.Â
Tears fell on the ground, drop by drop.Â
“Leo and I are happy now,” I continued. “No one willÂ
bully him anymore, and no one will judge him forÂ
his sickness.”Â
“I’m sorry… I’m sorry…”Â
Harrison apologized in broken segments.Â
“Maddy, I was wrong… I was really wrong…”Â
“Please give me another chance…”Â
He walked closer to me, his steps unsteady, everyÂ
one looking difficult.Â
The agony in his eyes was almost overflowing.Â
“I can’t sleep every night; as soon as I close my eyes, it’s your face, and all the terrible things I did…Â
I wish I could kill myself, Maddy, I really regret it…”Â
“I know you hate me, you can hit me or yell at me, just please… don’t hide from me, don’t let me notÂ
be able to find you, don’t take Leo out of my lifeÂ
completely…”Â
Harrison tried to grab my sleeve.Â
But at the moment he was about to touch it, heÂ
was repelled by my cold stare and pulled his handÂ
back.Â
“I’ll transfer all my assets to you and Leo. I don’tÂ
want anything, Maddy, just don’t divorce me… IÂ
don’t have to disturb you, just let me watch from a distance, okay…”Â
Harrison had already dragged his dignity into theÂ
dirt.Â
He was just short of kneeling and shamelessly begging me not to leave him.Â
“Harrison, I have only one wish,” I saidÂ
“And that is for you to never show your face inÂ
front of me for the rest of your life.”

